TLDR. Now I know I still have a Sinanju review due (currently 3/4 done with decals!) but this particular thought has been stuck in my head for months now so thought I’d like to share about it now. Let’s see where to begin…
The above is exactly what I see everyday when I wake up and open my eyes. One too many times I find myself questioning “why do I have so many again? =.=”. For the past year, it seems like I’ve lost my passion, incentives, and reasons for continuing to collect Gundam models. It’s not even a matter of money or space but rather… I think I’m getting tired/bored of Gundam.
I remember when I first started Gunpla, I would jump right into it with excitement. I even thought to myself “oh how I wish I could have a Gundam model to build everyday!”. Took me long enough to realize that I’ve finally fulfilled that childhood wish and I literally do have a model everday to work on but for some odd reasons, it doesn’t feel as “HOORAY!” as it should be ^^;.Before this blog, it would take me anywhere from one month to over a year to get started on a model; I’d buy the model without the intention of building them. While I still remember it was a lot of fun back then, now it seems like a chore to complete a model. This must have something to do with how I now care about making the model look nice and getting all technical (removing nubs, painting, etc) instead of just snap and play. In any case, I was never a “modeler” nor did I make Gunpla an actual hobby… I’m just someone who likes the Gundams.
Another thing that has been lingering in my head is the future of my models. Where will they be ten years from now? Still displayed in the case? destroyed? thrown away? Given away? I don’t know but I’m sure all good things come to an end eventually. Just looking at what I have in my cases now, I ponder if there comes a day that I would personally get rid of them for whatever reason (though highly unlikely anyway). I would hate to see my effort like my MG Unicorn and Ex-S disappear.
Probably the core reason for my collection of Gunpla stems from nostalgia. Robots are one of the very first thing I recognize and play with while growing up as a kid and I think I’ve been exposed to Gundam as early as age four. Loved how my mom used to take me to Chinatown and I see many shops with Gundam model displays; I was awestruck by the “powerful robots” and “big guns”. The model part came from my mom always buying me these toys (that assembles like Gundam models) that comes with candy inside (I think you all know what I’m talking about). That nostalgic feeling weared out a long time ago. I don’t get that jolly kid feeling anymore whenever I build my models. I just get serious.
Lastly, Gunplas are expensive and it gets even more expensive. I’m not going (too) poor or anything but I think it’s best that I should start saving now while my income is still stable. Restraint is the keyword here. Or I could use my Gunpla budget for more worthwhile things like a TV… or a performance exhaust manifold and exhaust system (hello Mugen) for my car. This year, I’ve already put off a few models that I originally wanted to get: Nu HWS, 1/144 00-Raiser, and PG Red Frame. Now they can wait till whenever I have room. I was very tempted to order them but then I think “…. I won’t get to them anytime soon anyway”. I also need to finish my backlog. So yea, this last reason is a little about restraint. Less consuming. More saving.
I’ll admit… if it weren’t for this blog, I would never have put in the effort to reduce my backlog. Most of the models reviewed here would probably still be on their runners ^^;. Saying that, I’ll still put in all my effort to complete my backlog (that’s still 13+ MG and a few HG) and that will be the end of my “active” Gunpla arc of life. “Active” meaning deliberately buying Gunplas and regularly building them. After the backlog, I’ll just sit back and maybe pick up one or two models a year or something like that. Don’t worry, this blog still have a LONNGGGGGGGG way to go and you can continue to expect the usual Gunpla reviews from me for months to come ^^. To sum everything up, I am simply losing my passion for Gunpla and trying to prioritize things a little better. That’s all.
UPDATE: As some point out, maybe I just need a good break from Gunpla and then maybe my passion will come back. Maybe I’m getting burnt out from building one Gunpla after another and Sinanju finally pushed me over the edge. I supposed it’s not a good sign if one goes “NOOO! IT’S A GUNDAM (MODEL)!!!” after seeing a new Gundam model ^^;. I do hope my passion will ignite again someday.
What’s your view of your Gunpla collection? Is your passion strong enough to keep you going for the years to come? Feel free to share any thoughts you have ^^